Gasping

Gasping
held back ,
muted, muffled.
Open my mouth, only to have
sound shoved back down my throat.
Suffocated, stifled.
Choking on thoughts.
Stuck in an emotional drought
Gasping for air, for hope
Searching for ways to silently express myself.
Eyes desparate to cry, but tears refusing to fall...
for knowing the world can't handle it all.
Stuggling and fighting
the unyielding urge to concede defeat.
Failure.
Gasped my last terrifyingly insignificant last breath,
only to be swallowed whole by the darkness.